If so, then you are in the RIGHT PLACE! Because chances are that you are pretty tough on yourself and needing some extra self-compassion skills.  Also, it seems like you are ready to really take a deeper look into who you are, your relationships, and how to show up in the world with healthier alignment with your values.  And, we will not at all be taking for granted that you have a sense of humor similar to mine.  By the way, HI, I'm Joy Walsh, Licensed Clinical Social Worker and "am I the asshole?" questioner in recovery. I've got years of experience gaining the therapy skills needed to help you out of this, and I really love teaming up with people like you!